I want things to go according to my plan and the way I think is best. This may have something to do with my bossy, high strung, type A personality lol. The funny thing is that I will be the first to admit that in actuality, I have no idea what is best for me, let alone my family. The Lord continually reminds me daily that He alone is the author of my life and every day of my life has already been recorded in His book and every moment of my life has already been laid out (Psalms 139:16). My job isn't really to write my own story...my job is to live out the incredibly, beautiful story that God has already written. You see, I am reminded in (Galatians 1:15) that the Lord formed me & knit me together before I was even in my mothers womb. He wrote my story long before I was ever born. All I have to do is SEEK my heavenly father daily and keep my eyes fixed on Him and guess what, everything in my life will go according to His plan and His perfect will! I can be at peace and rest easy knowing that the very one who spoke this world into existence and created the heavens and the sea has a perfect plan for my life.
I was thinking today about how I am pregnant with another baby and I feel like I still have my hands completely full with my 1st baby. I started to sorta panic about how I am going to handle 2 little ones both under two, both in diapers and both needing my 100% undivided attention? I know a million mom's do it but I am just not sure how me, SheriLynn Alcala is going to do it. As I was worrying I felt an overwhelming peace and I knew the Lord was saying that He would not give me more than I could handle and this pregnancy is all apart of "His perfect plan".
I was then reminded about another important turning point in my life when I listened to God and followed what "He" was saying instead of following my own plans. After I graduated high school I wanted to go to St. Mary's University in Moraga, CA. I was accepted into that beautiful school and my best friend was going there. I would get to spend 4 years living in the city of San Francisco and I could even do a semester abroad in Europe. It seemed perfect to me, but for some reason I knew that the Lord was leading me to go to a 2 year Bible school called Masters Commission USA in Phoenix, AZ. The crazy thing is, if I would have followed "my plan" and gone to St Mary's instead of going to Masters Commission, then I would have never met my amazing husband who I met one evening when I was 18 years old, in a little room called Carmen Hall. I was on the dance team and we were practicing a dance for a big conference we were dancing in at Phoenix First Assembly Church. That one moment changed the course of my life and I am so thankful that God had me in the right place at the right time so that I could meet my true soul mate. Sure, graduating from the University of Texas of the Permian Basin (where I ended up going to college after Masters Commission) was not as beautiful as St Mary's University. But I would give up any college in the world to be married to my incredible husband and I am so thankful that I let God direct me instead of directing myself.
Now I am not comparing my new baby to a college choice lol I am simply saying that in my life I know that the Lord knows what is best for me. Everything happens for a reason and although it may not make sense at the moment, it all makes sense later on. I may be a little scared and think that there is no way I can handle two babies so close in age but who knows, a year from now I may be saying that having two kids close in age is the easiest, best thing in the world ;) All I know is that every day I must surrender my life to the Lord and seek after Him.
My hearts desire is to just live out the story that He has already written for me!