January 15, 2011
I am going on my 9th week of pregnancy and all I have to say is "Pregnancy how
sweet it is..." I am in the unfortunate morning sickness category which 75% of pregnant women experience. I always heard of women and friends experiencing morning sickness but for some reason I assumed I would be in the lucky non-nauseous/non-vomiting 25% category...boy was I wrong! So far I have not experienced the pregnancy glow I have experienced the unflattering nauseating pregnancy shade of green. I now hate saltine crackers, dry cereal & ginger ale. In my mind those food items are now associated with sickness and vomiting. To top it all off my love for Starbucks coffee has left me and I no longer crave a grande 5 pump, non-fat, no water, extra hot Chi Latte! Who would have thought?!?! My plan was actually to wean off caffeine but still enjoy 1 cup of decaf coffee in the morning or 1 Chi Latte in the afternoon (my Dr. approved of that!!!) Somehow this little raspberry inside of me caused me to give up caffeine cold turkey! I keep asking myself how can this tiny little fetus the size of a raspberry cause me to feel so sick! And what about the tiredness. I am the type of person who likes to go go go. I never take naps and I never stay in sweats all day...well until this little raspberry took over my life! For the last 2 weeks I have been so tired and exhausted. All I want to do is sleep and stay home (that is sooooo not me). I have to make myself shower (gross...I know!)
So what do they mean by pregnancy bliss and a mothers glow???
I have somehow figured out the answer to that in the midst of my morning sickness, tiredness & utter exhaustion. Even though I feel horrible, I have never been so excited, anxious & happy. I have this little thing growing inside of me that actually has fingers and toes! Even though it is an inch in size it has eye lids, kidneys & a heart, that beats 155 beats per minute! It flutters and moves around all day long. There is something about being pregnant and grasping the fact that a child, my child is growing within me that truly makes me stand back in awe and wonder of my majestic Lord. This is not an accident and this is not a coincidence. This is God's predestined, ordained plan coming to pass in my life. I can't help but think of Jeremiah 1:5 "I knew you before I formed you in your mothers womb. Before you were born I set you apart..." Lord I pray for this baby that is already beginning to grow. It is not just an embryo or fetus it is a child of God that has a calling and plan on its life. I give him/her over to you because I know that this is your child first and foremost. Thank you for this blessing that I do not deserve.
When I change my perspective I stop feeling bad for myself, whats a few months of sickness and fatigue in the light of eternity. I should feel over joyed, favored and honored that the Lord has entrusted me with one of his gems. James 1:17 "Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the father of heavenly lights..."
Pregnancy...how truly sweet it is