Saturday, January 15, 2011


January 15, 2011 

 I am going on my 9th week of pregnancy and all I have to say is "Pregnancy how sweet it is..." I am in the unfortunate morning sickness category which 75% of pregnant women experience. I always heard of women and friends experiencing morning sickness but for some reason I assumed I would  be in the lucky non-nauseous/non-vomiting 25% category...boy was I wrong! So far I  have not experienced the pregnancy glow I have experienced the unflattering nauseating pregnancy shade of green. I now hate saltine crackers, dry cereal & ginger ale. In my mind those food items are now associated with sickness and vomiting. To top it all off my love for Starbucks coffee has left me and I no longer crave a grande 5 pump, non-fat, no water, extra hot Chi Latte! Who would have thought?!?! My plan was actually to wean off caffeine but still enjoy 1 cup of decaf coffee in the morning or 1 Chi Latte in the afternoon (my Dr. approved of that!!!) Somehow this little raspberry inside of me caused me to give up caffeine cold turkey! I keep asking myself how can this tiny little fetus the size of a raspberry cause me to feel so sick! And what about the tiredness. I am the type of person who likes to go go go. I never take naps and I never stay in sweats all day...well until this little raspberry took over my life! For the last 2 weeks I have been so tired and exhausted. All I want to do is sleep and stay home (that is sooooo not me). I have to make myself shower (gross...I know!)

So what do they mean by pregnancy bliss and a mothers glow???

I have somehow figured out the answer to that in the midst of my morning sickness, tiredness & utter exhaustion. Even though I feel horrible, I have never been so excited, anxious & happy. I have this little thing growing inside of me that actually has fingers and toes! Even though it is an inch in size it has eye lids, kidneys & a heart, that beats 155 beats per minute! It flutters and moves around all day long. There is something about being pregnant and grasping the fact that a child, my child is growing within me that truly makes me stand back in awe and wonder of my majestic Lord. This is not an accident and this is not a coincidence. This is God's predestined, ordained plan coming to pass in my life. I can't help but think of Jeremiah 1:5 "I knew you before I formed you in your mothers womb. Before you were born I set you apart..." Lord I pray for this baby that is already beginning to grow. It is not just an embryo or fetus it is a child of God that has a calling and plan on its life. I give him/her over to you because I know that this is your child first and foremost. Thank you for this blessing that I do not deserve.

When I change my perspective I stop feeling bad for myself, whats a few months of sickness and fatigue in the light of eternity. I should feel over joyed, favored and honored that the Lord has entrusted me with one of his gems. James 1:17 "Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the father of heavenly lights..." truly sweet it is


  1. So excited for you and John! Our baby boy arrived in October and it's been amazing! Life just seems more complete with him here! Praying for you guys during your new journey!

  2. Awww...Thanks Amy ;) & Congrats on your new little guy!